“I would like to have one day where not one second I missed one moment of the love that is available.” – Peter Van Dyk”

Peter Van Dyk died at his home in Fairfax California on May- 22-2014. Peter was a incredibly talented peace educator and family counselor in Northern California who had Stage 4 Melanoma. He worked for years teaching violent men and their families how to be peaceful.
As I write this I am very aware that the word death or died is not a word that as a culture here in America that we are uncomfortable with. Indeed we ignore and try never to think about this topic that we will all have to face. I honor and totally accept and respect everyone where-ever they may be in their personal understanding of living and dying. I share my experience and thoughts on this matter with the hope that some may find something of value and be perhaps inspired to live their lives to their fullest potential and celebrate life and death.

In Buddhism the belief that if one accepts their inevitable death completely than one’s life can be fully lived.

I write the following about one such man who was courageous and honest with himself about such matters. Most of his adult life he gave himself over to be in service to others, and at times lost his own way on this human journey, that we are all on together as if we are walking each other home to our final resting place.

My experience with Peter for the last two years has been one that I shall always cherish. He was not afraid to show his humanity, at times his boyish playful energy would come forth and humbly give way to a curious fascination of all.

He lived life on his own terms, and respected that others did the same. Peter loved it when he noticed that I would show my true self, he seemed to understand on a very deep level without any judgment that one must be their authentic self, no matter what.

With curiosity guiding his way he spoke about, that perhaps the years before the onset of his disease, he could of been more loving, more present to himself and available to others. And now with the knowing that his death was near he was forced to face the reality of what may of been and could be.

Many people who found themselves in this state of suffering and psychical pain, are completely transformed by this experience, to awaken to a new found joy, of release from their all to familiar patterns and separation from others.

There was a constant thread that ran through all of our conversations that held Peters attention, that love was the single most important fact in ones life that he knew that could
experience and share with others.

Victoria VanAyerst http://www.artofconsciouslivingtv.com

Peter wrote the following on

“I would like to have one day where not one second I missed one moment of the love that is available.” – Peter Van Dyk”

Hello my Dear Friends,

I haven’t written for a while, seems like I’m in a holding pattern, been circling for a few weeks checking out safe landing runways.

Basically, magically everything remains the same. I am still waiting on a call back from UCSF about the clinical trial. I am gaining weight, exercising, eating well & feeling loved & loving.

Feeling very blessed, seen & understood, by the closest ‘most’ important people in my life at this time. And even beginning to understand & have a little compassion for myself.

My wild silence the last few weeks has not meant to distance me from you, or lessen the deep appreciation & love I have for you. Instead I have been waiting until I found something honest, something raw and something unique, something I haven’t said before & maybe something NO one else has ever said before. There is something inside me needing to come out, needing to be given voice, there must be, otherwise I would not have this desire, this compelling force to be heard, to be connected to you. So this is it.

I am most amazed, impressed & fascinated by the ability of one human being to love another human being. I think this is the secret of the universe, the multi-verse & the one, the only thing I have to say. People love—– they love each other—–they love themselves—-they love more than one, people love their families, friends, dogs, coffee, a cool breeze on a warm day, and eyes, don’t You just love eyes?

Anyway, this is what has been filling my days, this simple realization, people love. They simply love. They love perfectly & not so perfectly, can any love be imperfect? Doggone, Isn’t that amazing!!! Damn, that is amazing & marvelous & worthy of praise. Everyone I know loves someone, something, some idea, some moment, everyone wants love, needs love, everyone is love.

Stop right now & let love find you, let love fill you, let it flush out anything else……..until only love remains. Isn’t that something, when reminded you can experience, create, remember, find, be love. At any time love is waiting for you & me. Your love is undeniable! My love is undeniable too! Is this love actually yours? Is it mine?

No matter what has been done to you, no matter what you have done to yourself or an other, you are still love. You are lovable, loving, loved. You, I all of us are love…….. All of us have this capacity, ability, need, desire, design……. We have been designed to love & this program is our truth!

This cancer, that is inside me, that I am learning to love, this cancer got its start when I forgot this simple, absolute truth. I had chased love away, I had forgotten even the love of God, the love of our designer. And then love came alive in me, again. The cancer sparked, ignited, reminded me of this, our design……….No, actually YOU sparked, ignited, reminded me of this. You, the other in my world, showed up & so did love. It is You, who was designed to love who showed up & graced, blessed me with love & reminded me of my love too. I had forgotten my song, my design, my love……& then you showed up, seeing me, holding me, loving me, singing my song, inviting me, welcoming me, home to myself to your love & then love itself exploded in my soul & love became all there is. And I thank you, you have allowed me to love once again & to know love like never before.

Peter 2.20.14

Hello Dear Ones,

Waking early one morning recently I had a little time of wonder & awe, a moment where I seemed to have stumbled into an entirely non- ordinary world. I opened my door as the first rays of light were brightening my small yard & garden. As I stepped on the grass I looked around & everything I saw came to life. All the plants, the trees, the flowers, the grass, gave off their own light. It seemed as if the light from the sun was waking up their life force and I had stumbled into an energetic force field of life itself. Everything around me seemed like it was letting me see it for the first time. Everything was connected & sparkling with life itself.

I sat down very softly & slowly glanced around. I felt like I was being exposed to a magical universe where anything, everything was possible. I even saw or felt like there were fairies around the plants like they all had their own little Tinker Bells to nurture & protect them. It seemed like they were aware of my presence & they were ok with it, more than ok they were welcoming me & happy I was there. I was sitting quietly with my ears, eyes, heart open & observing this community waking up & greeting this new day with love. Then suddenly I went from observing to being a part of the community. I was waking up too & greeting my new day with love. I felt my life force stirring, shimmering with light & love & I felt it coming out of me, joining with the field of light & love all around me & then I disappeared, there was only light and love. There were no trees, flowers, plants, sun, air, space, things, forms, there was no me, only love and light and peace and a joy of completeness, a joy of bliss & a joy of total & complete oneness.

Thank you for being with me, thank you for being a part of my community, thanks for being a Being of love & light & joining me to complete the joy of Oneness.

I go in tomorrow for my 2nd round of the new chemo treatment. I have been dealing with the pain much better, the tumor is shrinking and I am feeling stronger both physically, emotionally & mentally. I have been excited about working on this concept of healing a death. This process is about healing all the parts of my self that I have abandoned, ignored, given away or that have been unskillful, unkind, scared & scary, the parts of me that came to protect & defend & keep me safe, all of these parts that ended up damaging my friends & myself. I am inviting & bringing all these parts up for me to hear & to heal. I have also been doing the work of forgiving myself & understanding my self. More shall be revealed, more will be healed. I know light & love are here whenever I stop & recognize life, whenever I join myself with life, the light & love are One.

Thanks for being my community, thanks for your light, your love, blessings I do love you. Peter

Peter wrote this on 3-9-14
“Yesterday the CAT scan results showed that the cancer has spread across my brain in massive size and in many locations. Ahhhhhhhhhh, so I
now have days left to live, maybe a week or two or maybe even 3 weeks or maybe a month or two.
“So today is the very first day of the rest of my life. And so how do I live now? What do I feel? What do I think? Who am I? AND how do I
function bravely this day & tomorrow?

“I just wanted to get the news out ASAP to all my friends & ask for your prayers. More doctor visits, hospital tests will follow.

“Thank you for all of the love & for all of your generosity & all of your kindness,

“I will be writing as accurately as I can & with a full open heart of love, I may have whatever time I have left, i want to give it all away.
May God kiss you all awake, may your families be blessed, May love stay strong in your souls and may I be feeling the joy of life until the
day I am no longer breathing, I love You all, may God grant me with peace, grace & may I share it with you all.
“Blessings, love & total kindness.
I Love You, I need You. May we be kind to each other from now till forever, Peace”

Peter van Dyk interview on his terminal illness and the love he is finding and sharing. Very touching. I am resting in Heart after watching. Watch if you want to soften the edges of your life. – Daniel

Just took a walk here on the mountain. Peter’s love is palpable. “May the Pure Light within him (and all his friends and family) guide his way on”. Such an amazing healing journey, his life! Now heading for nothing less than “Love Itself”. “Peace is just the beginning”. You guys are awesome! – Maria Michell.

Spread your wings…fly free of the body… go with grace…sending you much love and prayers in this transition Pete…we’ll miss your sweetness- Miriam Lichtenstein.


Kelly Bryson, Non Violent Communication. NVC.The Langage of Love.

Kelly Bryson MA, MFT is a licensed psychotherapist and authorized trainer for the international Center for Nonviolent Communication (a nonprofit organization).

You will find valuable information here about Nonviolent Communication (sm) including:

There’s a lot of great content here presented with Kelly’s inspiring humor, wit, and wisdom. Here are just a few of the things you’ll find:

Kelly’s dynamic speaking topics geared toward improving organizational communication
info about his best selling book “Don’t Be Nice, Be Real. Balancing Passion for Self with Compassion for Others.
an anthology Kelly contributed to: “The Marriage of Sex and Spirit: Relationship at the Heart of Conscious Evolution” (With Deepak Chopra, Marianne Williamson, John Gray, has been voted “Best Health / Sexuality Book” in the Best Books 2006 National Book Awards.)
free original articles like “Don’t pay the Price of being Nice”
poems like “The Places you could go if you weren’t afraid of No”
list of organizations served
testimonials about his work
Kelly’s resume and biography.
Below is Kelly’s blog where you’ll find outstanding articles, songs, videos, and interviews.

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ZEGG’s Twelve Theses for a Nonviolent World
Posted on March 14, 2013 by admin
by Dieter Duhm, 1992

The worldwide violence against animals, children and nations demands a new concept of human civilization. The inner and outer crises are two aspects of the same problem–a problem that can only be understood or resolved if both aspects are considered. For several years, Project Meiga — Experiment for a Humane Earth — formed in Germany, has been working to form an international cooperative for a human existence free of fear and violence. The following 12 theses emphasize the direction of this effort.


“Allan Hardman true Toltec Master, it is the way he lives his life.

Allan says: “All life is based on relationships, and the most important relationship is the one we have with ourselves. Most people have learned to believe lies denying their value and worth in the world. I am passionate about helping us all change how we “dream” ourselves — and learn to love and accept themselves just as we are (and just as we are not!). When we heal our relationship with ourselves the entire world we live in changes. Want to change your world? Let’s do it!”

Allan’s background includes over twenty years as a practitioner and instructor of Alchemical Hypnotherapy and spiritual psychology, and a ten year personal apprenticeship with Miguel Ruiz, author of The Four Agreements and other books. He is a Toltec Master in that tradition and brings his wisdom of the Toltec path to his work with spiritual counseling and emotional healing. Allan is the author of The Everything Toltec Wisdom Book, and co-author of The Heart of Healing and Healing the Heart of the World, with Deepak Chopra, Dean Ornish, Caroline Myss, and many others.
Allan Hardman is an insightful, poetic and compelling writer. The Everything Toltec Wisdom Book provides a fascinating look inside yourself, into the deepest truth of who you are, and gives you an easy to implement, step-by-step guide to using Toltec Wisdom to live a life that is happy, fulfilling, and successful. Learn powerful tools to heal yourself and create your life with a warrior’s clarity and purpose. This book will show you how to really live the wisdom of The Four Agreements.

“Allan Hardman became
a true Toltec Master
several years ago, and
it is the way he lives
his life. He was one of
my best apprentices.”
– don Miguel Ruiz, author of
The Four Agreements™

You will understand and apply the three masteries of Toltec Wisdom to your life:

The Mastery of Awareness
The Mastery of Transformation
The Mastery of Intent
Allan brings his unique background in emotional and spiritual healing into the Toltec Wisdom that was given to him by his teacher, don Miguel Ruiz. Now you can follow this ancient tradition to transform the way you think, feel, and love!

• Become aware of the stories in your dreaming mind
• Release old beliefs and agreements that limit your life
• Find true forgiveness for yourself and others
• Transform your dream and live in Heaven on Earth
• Connect with the Divine Truth of who You really are
• Celebrate life, dancing in joy with all of Creation

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Alan Watts, Author of 25 Books 50/60s Daughter Anne Watts.

Early Years
Alan Watts was born in London in January of 1915 at the start of the first World War. At a young age he became fascinated with the arts of the Far East, and by the time he was ten or eleven he began to read thriller stories by Sax Rohmer about about mysterious Oriental villains. This interest led him in turn to the works of Lafcadio Hern, Christmas Humphreys, and DT Suzuki, and by fourteen was writing on Eastern themes, and was published in the Journal of the London Buddhist Lodge before producing his first booklet on Zen in 1932. He moved to New York in 1938 and then to Chicago where he served as an Episcopal priest for six years before leaving the Church. In 1950 he moved to upstate New York, and in late 1950 visited with Joseph Campbell and, composer John Cage, and Luisa Commaraswamy at his Millbrook farmhouse. Then in 1951 at the invitation of Frederic Spiegelberg he moved to San Francisco to teach at the Academy of Asian Studies.
Alan Watts was profoundly influenced by the East Indian philosophies of Vedanta and Buddhism, and by Taoist thought, which is reflected in Zen poetry and the arts of China and Japan. After leaving the Church he never became a member of another organized religion, although he wrote and spoke extensively about Zen Buddhism, Hinduism, and Taoisim. Some American Buddhists criticized him for not sitting regularly in zazen, even though he recorded several guided meditations teaching a variety of mediation techniques. Alan Watts responded simply by saying: “A cat sits until it is done sitting, and then gets up, stretches, and walks away.”
1950′s and early ’60′s
After teaching at the Academy of Asian Studies in San Francisco he became Dean, and began to give regular radio talks on KPFA, the Berkeley free radio station. In 1957 he published his bestselling Way of Zen, and in 1958 returned to Europe where he met with CG Jung. He was an early subject in pioneering psychedelic trials, and after recording two seasons of the public television series “Eastern Wisdom and Modern Life” traveled to Japan several times in the early sixties. By the late sixties he had become a counter culture celebrity, and traveled widely to speak at universities and growth centers across the US and Europe.
Later Years
By the early seventies Alan Watts had become a foremost interpreter of Eastern thought for the West, and was widely published in periodicals including Earth, Elle, Playboy, and Redbook. He appeared on CBS television’s Camera Three in 1969, and in 1971 he recorded a pilot for a new show titled “A Conversation with Myself” for NET, the precursor to PBS. When the series was not produced he recorded the shows in 1972 with his son Mark and his long-time audio archivist Henry Jacobs. Overall Alan Watts developed an extensive audio library of nearly 400 talks and wrote more than 25 books during his lifetime, including his final volume, Tao; the Watercourse Way. Alan died in his sleep in November of 1973 after returning from an intensive international lecture tour. A film on his life and works is currently in production.


Dr. Henry Grayson, Ph.D. Use your BODY to HEAL your MIND

Dr. Henry Grayson is a scientific, spiritual, mindbody psychologist who founded and directed the National Institute for the Psychotherapies in New York City. He is the author of Mindful Loving (in it’s twentieth printing), the best selling Sounds True Audio Series, The New Physics of Love, as well as co-author of three professional books. Dr. Grayson integrates diverse psychotherapies with neuroscience, quantum physics, subtle energies with Eastern and Western spiritual mindfulness. He practices in New York City and Connecticut.

Dr. Henry Grayson is on the cutting edge of mind/body/spirit psychology. The founder of the National Institute for the Psychotherapies in New York City, Dr. Grayson was a Protestant minister before receiving his Ph.D. in psychology from Boston University and post-doctoral certification in psychoanalysis from the Postgraduate Center for Mental Health. This rich background led him to his work in spiritually based, mind body energy psychology and his creation of Synergetic Therapy.

He is the Founder and Chairman Emeritus of the Board of Trustees of the National Institute for the Psychotherapies in New York; the Founder and Director of the Institute for Spirituality, Science and Psychotherapy; and continues to appear in numerous documentaries and PBS specials. He has studied neuropsychology, the major psychotherapies, the new power therapies, quantum physics and Eastern and Western spiritual philosophies. He is the author of Use Your Body to Heal Your Mind: Revolutionary Methods to Release All Barriers to Health, Healing and Happiness, Mindful Loving: 10 Practices for Creating Deeper Connections and the best selling CD Audio Series for Sounds True,The New Physics of Love: The Power of Mind & Spirit in Relationships. His academic titles include Three Psychotherapies: A Clinical Comparison, Short Term Approaches to Psychotherapy, and Changing Approaches To The Psychotherapies. In addition, he is the co-chairman of the PTSD division of the Stand Up For Your Troops Foundation.

Dr. Grayson’s professional affiliations include: Fellow of the American Group Psychotherapy Association, Diplomat of the American Board of Professional Psychology; member of the American Psychological Association, The New York State Psychological
Association, The Connecticut Psychological Association, The Association for Transpersonal Psychology, The Institute of Noetic Sciences, The Society for the Scientific Study of Subtle Energies Medicine, EMDR International Association, a former Board Member of the Eastern Group Psychotherapy Society, and is the Founder and Past President of the Association for Spirituality and Psychotherapy. Diplomat of The Association for Comprehensive Energy Psychology


John Trudell acclaimed poet, national recording artist, actor and activist.

John Trudell is an acclaimed poet, national recording artist, actor and activist whose international following reflects the universal language of his words, work and message. Trudell (Santee Sioux) was a spokesperson for the Indian of All Tribes occupation of Alcatraz Island from 1969 to 1971. He then worked with the American Indian Movement (AIM), serving as Chairman of AIM from 1973 to 1979. In February of 1979, a fire of unknown origin killed Trudell’s wife, three children and mother-in-law. It was through this horrific tragedy that Trudell began to find his voice as an artist and poet, writing, in his words, “to stay connected to this reality.”

In 1982, Trudell began recording his poetry to traditional Native music and in 1983 he released his debut album Tribal Voice on his own Peace Company label. Trudell then teamed up with the late legendary Kiowa guitarist Jesse Ed Davis. Together, they recorded three albums during the 1980’s. The first of these, AKA Graffiti Man, was released in 1986 and dubbed the best album of the year by Bob Dylan. AKA Graffiti Man served early notice of Trudell’s singular ability to express fundamental truths through a unique mix of poetry, Native music, blues and rock. Since that time, Trudell has released seven more albums plus a digitally re-mastered collection of his early Peace Company cassettes. His 2002 CD, Bone Days, was executive produced by Academy Award winning actress Angelina Jolie and released on the Daemon Records label.

His latest double album, Madness & The Moremes, showcases more than five years of new music and includes special Ghost Tracks of old favorite Trudell tunes made with legendary Kiowa guitarist Jesse Ed Davis. This internet only release offers a full range of classic Trudell poetry — there are lyrics filled with penetrating insight and others with knock out humor, all put to some of the best music Bad Dog has ever made together. Madness and The Moremes is available now on http://www.johntrudell.com

In addition to his music career, Trudell has played roles in a number of feature films, including a lead role in the Mirimax movie Thunderheart and a major part in Sherman Alexie’s Smoke Signals. He most recently played Coyote in Hallmark’s made for television movie, Dreamkeeper.


Miranda Macpherson Awakening Love, Embodying Wisdom. Author of Boundless Love.

Awaken to the stillness of your own heart — God, not merely as concept but as direct experience.

Unwind stuck patterns and habits of suffering gracefully.

Bring your deepest questions and heart-felt concerns to a transformational atmosphere of unconditional love.

You are deeper than you realize. More loving than perhaps you dare to live. Wiser than you know. In the core of your being, you are infinite, boundless, vast. I offer you an invitation to wake up to yourself and live your deepest essence in the world, in a way that cuts through personal and collective habits of suffering.

My greatest joy is to meet with you in soul friendship and dive together into the stillness of your own heart ‚ or God — not as a concept or idea, but as direct experience. In this awareness, you are freed to relax and be yourself. Fearful thoughts and stuck habits are seen for what they are and unravel gracefully. Peace and compassion emerge of themselves. Then you can face the challenges of life with greater insight. Instead of seeking so hard to find love and joy, you can recognize their source inside of yourself and live from that.

This website offers you inspiration and information about how we can connect in person, as well as audio and video downloads so that you can access the grace offered here — from where you are right now.

May you live from your deepest truth in a way that blesses everyone.

Boundless love and blessings.

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